short tales in recent life

Get something extra for lunch for FREE just makes you feel good. Haha. Few days back, I got a double-sized chicken patty but the tauke just have me paid for the normal price. He said:"You're lucky today, I'm supposed to charge you for more but I'll just have it as the normal price. The two chicken patties just stick to each other." Before this, he also joked about charging me double when I got a double yolk egg. Below is an attached picture of my extra value lunch.

my regular meal

Then, two days before I sit for my ICIS final paper, I woke up at 7.30am for a jog. I planned to start off my last minute ICIS revision after the jog. That morning, my image on the mirror gave me a big shock. I looked like a zombie, or perhaps a panda. Are my eye balls protruding outwards and caused "shadows" to be casted under my eyes? Haha. It was already quite bright that time. The air is invigorating. After having some warm-ups, I plugged in my earphones and took off. I found myself gasping for air just after one complete round around the lake. Low stamina... I LOVE MY SPORTSHOES, although they were worn off. Sorry for not taking good care of you, by making you a pair of multipurpose shoes...

the lake

comfortable, convenient,... support Adidas! haha

And that day, I left my clothes outside drying and headed for IRC for some revision. I think my "RAM" was completely stuffed with ICIS notes, terms, etc until I totally forgot about my clothes. At 6pm, I ran through the rain to "rescue" them. It's too late, anyway. They were soaked wet.

One last tale, I was late for my ICIS final exam. I didn't wake up late, just that I wasted too much time on the way to the examination hall. I had so many butteflies in my stomach when I entered the hall. I took some time to settle down before starting my ICIS final paper. The objective questions were tougher than the subjective ones. Hope to have good marks...

self reflection

I always think that I'm mature enough to organise my own life. Well, now that I really allocate some time to think about this issue that I've tried to avoid for such long time, I realise that I'm not as good as I think.

After entering UTP, my body clock changed. 12am, a time that I considered to be very late back in my secondary school life, now appears to be the beginning of the night. I'll only retire for the night at 3 to 4am. I've put a liitle effort to change it. I threw myself onto bed on 12am yesterday but yet, I woke up at 11am. No matter how early I sleep, I'll just wake up late. My mom wasn't there anymore to wake me up and to drag me to bed.

Secondly, I wasted a lot of time. Facebook is the main culprit, I guess. (pointing the finger to others since I'm the one in blame) I spent a lot of time on Facebook recently. I even surf Facebook when I was revising for my tests which eventually cost me a lot of lost marks. I've rushed through an anime and a Japanese drama recently, Code Geass and Proposal Daisekusen which I rated above 8/10 for both. It is time-consuming but it is much worthy than surfing Facebook. I would also rather use the time I wasted on Facebook to chat with friends on MSN.

I think that I've lived a lifeless life and I've not been using my brain to think in my university life. Sometimes, I have the thought that life is meaningless but I remembered once when my friend said his life is meaningless, I told him,"Life is meaningful, you are the one that is useless to make your life meaningless." I'm damn disappointed with myself now. I seemed to have a scheduled life. It is either going to lectures or spending time in the room surfing the internet. I've also been killing my creativity. I'm living life to the "foolest", not fullest.
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Promises:

1. I would try to sleep early with some exceptions:

(i) if there is a MU match that particular night.

(ii) if I have examination or some assignments to be handed over the other day.

2. I would cut down on my time in Facebook, no exceptions.

3. I would spend more time to think and try to live life to the fullest.

4. I would try to fulfill my promises.

Village 2 in UTP

I promised CSC that I'll take pictures of V2. Sorry for taking such a long time to show you. But at least I keep my promise. Haha.

This is the V2 cafe. Up there is called V2 foyer

where students ususally have meetings.

V2A


V2B

V2D - the block I'm living in. The window above right where the stairs start descending,
is my room. So, I also don't know I'm in the ground floor or the first floor. Haha.


This is the intruder found. So now you can see the consequences of trespassing. Haha.

"I think it is not necessary to let you all take a look at my room so I don't take any photos.

Nothing special about it..."

unconfident

Still remember once when my teacher asked me for the reason of rejecting her recommendation to make me the class monitor when I was still a Form One student, I answered, "I don't want to burden myself by giving myself additional responsibility." And guess what, I was scolded. Some sentences from her speech still remained in my mind until today. "How are you going to take care of your family, and how are you going to survive in future if you are scared of responsibilities?" It was then that I realised what a coward I was, not being dared enough to bear consequences due to a lack in confidence. Anyway, that incident caused no impact on me, how pathetic...

It was so irony for someone who is so unconfident in carrying most of the tasks in life, like me to ask others always to have faith in themselves. Recently, due to my lack in confidence and fear for bearing consequences, driving somehow appears to be a great challenge for me. When people ask me to drive, I'll try to reject. But, no worries because I'm working on it now. Wish me luck to find back my confidence in driving and in whatever things I do. I'm off to go...

Tiredness

Under the scorchingly hot sun, my shirt was soaking wet with perspiration, the perspiration of fear, disappointment and stress. Turning the knob, I gave the door a shove that it swung open widely. My little bed came right into sight. The textbook, calculator, stationery, papers in my bag were mentally so heavy that I had to drag my shoes along, all the way to my table. Prammm..., my bag got landed forcefully on the chair. The fan was switched to maximum speed. Taking off my shirt, I just fell onto my bed like a stone sinking into the sea. The sound of the fan was the only melody in my ears. I did not care if my sweaty back would make the bed sheet dirty. My shoes were still on and I was still in my tight jeans. With ear phones "plugged" in my ears, I was looking up at the fluorescent light. It was so bright. Many things flashed through my mind so quickly that I could barely remember them. Already Gone was the first song played. This sad song made me more emotional. My mind started to flutter and my eyelids were drooping. Soon, I found myself lying motionlessly with a calm yet depressed mind. I couldn't move a single muscle although I was still awake. Even if there was a man with a knife standing right in front of me, I think there won't be any reaction from me. I was so exhausted that even my involuntary reflex system couldn't function. Soon, I was sleeping like a log.

Oh, it's three already, which was the exact time my replacement chemistry lecture started. Taking my pencil case and calculator in one hand, I ran to the lecture hall. Gasping for air, I stepped into the lecture hall and found my lecturer standing inside. I was going to take a seat at the behind row when he suddenly shouted: "Hey you, come in front please!" I was still blurred at that time....

National Day Weekend

Finally, it was weekend again but this was a special one because we would have Monday holiday. Moreover, my roommate went KL. So, the whole room was mine. Hahahahaha. But CY, I didn't touch you thing, don't worry.

As free as a bird after my ICIS lab on friday noon, I washed my clothes and got my finger warm-up for FIFA09 by facebook-ing first. The tough France team got me rematching the game over and over again. My focus disconnected from FIFA when JL called me for badminton. Actually, I was considered beginner in badminton, and I think that's why JL invited me to play so he can bully me. Haha. Mason, CS and David followed along. It was nice. My badminton skills improved, by a minute amount, I think, maybe I hope. Exhausted, I accidentally kicked a senior's file left on the floor. Luckily, the senior was the friendly-type. The game left me with hangover - the aches and pain all around my body, as I didn't warm-up. In the evening, my friend rent a car and brought us out to Tronoh for food. We also went Taman Maju. AND one more thing, I was so reckless to leave my handphone on top of the car and finally realised it when we stopped for petrol-filling. Luckily, the handphone didn't fly off when the car was moving.

There was nothing special on Saturday. I online the whole afternoon and went to play basketball in the evening. At night, I went to watch football with Mason. It was a big match. Manchester United vs Arsenal. MU led 2-1. At the last minute, Arsenal equalised but it was an offside violation. We shouted and cheered like hell until I was too excited to sleep. Anyway, it was not a good performance by MU. Later JL came to my room to sing and Arria came later on to chat. We planned to go for "sahur" at 6am but V2 cafe already closed so we headed back to sleep.

Of course, I skipped Sunday morning. Bearing some mild muscle ache, I still went to play basketball at 10pm. We played with a few pro Malays. I was overcome with fatigue but it feels good to sweat this much. And one more thing, frankly, I really forgot about the National Day countdown. Haha.

It was National Day but I didn't sense any spirit of patriotism around. No sports for Monday. My drama team spent about 3 hours to roughly finish a draft of our script. At night, I had to start rushing for chemistry tutorial. This was the consequences of having the quote "Revising and doing assignment are prohibited in weekends". I didn't even understand what the questions wanted and I wasn't sure what time only I could finish it. So please don't try this in university...

Back to UTP

I got back to UTP at the 17th of July. It was a sad day for me as I had to leave my comfort zone and my family once again. No more mom's cooking but Malay food. No more fast internet but slow-crawling LAN. No more air-conditioned room but "spa room". No more TV programmes but lectures. The office in Block O had already closed when I reached there so I had to sleep at my friends' room. Shock was my only reaction when I saw one of my friends there with his newly-dyed gold colour hair.

When I went for registration for my room the other morning, I was told that there was no more rooms available for me in V2-A and V2-B where my friends lived. Yang and I were abadoned as we had to stay in V2-D. Our neighbours were all seniors who we didn't know. It was still crowded at 12am but silence fell at about 1am. The first thing that came into my eyes when I stepped into my room were lots and lots of cigarrette butts. I wonder how they could smoke until such level. And from the picture, you can also see the dust accumulated on the floor. The curtain was so dirty that I needed to wash it. It wasn't easy works at all to clean up the room.

The cigarrettes butts and dust under my bed

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All the rubbish

About the lectures, they were boring as usual. The lecturers were a bit stricter. Both Chemistry and Physics lecturer like asking questions, so it was far more dangerous compared to last semester. I joined some events this semester as a committee and get a little more busy. I had to run over here and there to register for the labs and tutorials which almost drive me crazy.

I went to Ipoh at the 18th before all the lectures started to buy some necessities. I bought nothing but only a big bottle of 5.5L water. Carrying it up and down the bus and travelling from places to places with it was tiring. And before we had to eat Malay food in the cafe for weeks, we indulged ourselves with something tempting in Ipoh.

I think I'll enjoy more in the second semester here in UTP. But we'll see then.