疤

在我 form 4 前认识我的人都会知道我头后面有道疤痕，长不了头发，因为我form4之前都是剪“二号头”嘛。但是我 form 4 后开始留了头发，不是留长发。头发长了，就盖掉了那道疤，所以form4 后才遇见我的人往往都不知道那道疤痕的存在。

那道疤痕其实是我小时候跌倒留下的。以前屋子的房间都稍微高一些，应该是防止水在水灾时流到房里。我就是趁妈妈不在意时走出房外，一不小心 "purum.. purum.. ping.. piang.. Pong~~" followed by "wu~ wu~ wu~ wu~"。疤痕从此就跟我更到现在了。。

最近姐姐一直催我去剪掉我头上那堆“杂草”。想了好久还是打算剪回以前的发型，但最后我弟拿出手机让我们看了一张 David Beckham 新发型的照片。大家都叫我试试那发型。其实我很早就很想很想尝试剪那种发型了，但是若剪了，疤痕就会跑出来了。我姐说那疤痕是我的特色，而且当时刚看完 X-men First Class，她就用 Magneto 对 Mystique 说的那句话套在我身上，说"Be proud of who you are"，笑得我嘴巴快抽筋了。就这样，我剪了这稍微短的发型。

回到大学，朋友们吃了一惊，问我头发怎么了，干吗剪了一个洞。我才开始讲故事咯。过后他们说我头后面有个 USM port，不用读书了，只要插 pendrive 来 transfer lecture notes 就可以了，哈哈。


我蛮喜欢我现在的发型，也不怎么在意别人怎么看我那道疤，也不在意那道疤比我出名（别人都只是关心我那道疤），因为那是我的特色！

1Malaysia

All this while, I have been mistaken as many other races.

The first case was my interview session in UTP. I went for a new haircut in order to score some image marks during the interview. Anyway, my mom commented that I looked like a Siamese boy.

My feeling : Maybe because of the haircut la.. Still acceptable..

The second case was during my trip to Sarawak with a few other friends during our semester break. My friend was kind enough to offer us accomodation in his house, saving me a lot of money and trouble. His family members were so friendly too. Anyway, at night, I got to know from my other friend that TCS's mom asked him if I am an Iban (lat kia).

My feeling : My complexion maybe.. Maybe all Sarawakian chinese are fairer since that friend is really fair. Acceptable..

The next case was during one of my events, Mission Awareness Programme (MAP) which is a foster family programme in Rungkup, Perak. I was the Emcee for the Opening Ceremony. During my stay, my friends told me that the villagers there asked why a Japanese can speak fluent Malay as an Emcee.

My feeling : WOW.. I'm gonna stick to my face cleansing product.. Feeling good.

After MAP, I joined Youth Nation Summit (YNS) 2011 in University Malaya. During MAP, I was under the sun for sukaneka for a few hours and taaadaaaaaaa.. I turned chocolate. No offense to anyone. My complexion was so dark that several people thought I was not a Chinese in YNS. A Malay reached out to me and I got to know he was from Kedah through our conversation. So I spoke Malay with him. Right after that, he asked if I am a Malay.

My feeling : WTH!!! I looked like a Malay, I mean how is it possible.. 接受不了。。

Then, I met another guy, Sam. He is an Indian from Penang and he told me that I looked like one of his friends, the shape of my face etc. I was like "ooooo, who is this guy?" does he really look like me?" It is then that Sam further said that he is an Indian. Now the guy that I imagine in my head suddenly turned Indian.

My feeling : Shocked.. Speechless.. Stop imagining..

That night itself, I asked one guy from Pakistan for a frank answer.
CC: What race you think I'm from?
Pakistan friend: Not sure but you do not look like chinese..

My feeling : That explains why people in YNS never start a conservation with me in Chinese.

In conclusion, I feel that it is acceptable for people to mistaken me as a Siam or an Iban, but Malay and Indian? No comment. I looked back the picture if YNS and I looked really dark, but still, I looked Chinese. I guessed I am UNIVERSALLY ACCEPTED and it is a good thing. I am a strong example of the 1Malaysia concept. Hahaha

*Clarification: I am shocked to know that I look like a Malay and Indian not becauseI do not want to or feel bad to be a Malay or Indian. No sense of racial discrimination at all. It is just that I have this particularly obvious small eyes which qualify me for Chinese (no offense for Chinese readers, just refering to the typical stereotype mindset for a Chinese.) 

So hard to write a blogpost involving races la..