something done

Just burnt the midnight oil for a Mechanics of Machine project, oil habis kering already. Actually I kinda like that subject. It is more related to mechanical engineering, drawing of simple machines and stuff. But still, pulling an all nighter completing report was not fun, especially when you have to squeeze your sleepy brain for some useful ideas late at night.

The report is quite lengthy and complicated with all the triangle rules, angles, Excel, etc and it is Mechanics of Machine, with an abbreviation - MOM. I was like I seriously needed my mom here with me to get me through the night, made me hot milo with HupSeng biscuits. They don't have those in UTP.

Kinda fell into low self-esteem and self-ignorant condition recently, piling up all assignments just to wait for the duedate, indulging myself with movies, snacks and "tumpang sahur" every night although I'm not fasting. Not sure if I'm gaining weight or not, but what's for sure is that my "eye shadow" is getting darker and darker. Oh God, I love Ramadan month!!!

It's been long since I've completed something myself, really missed the sense of achievement. I, an easily satisfied boy, managed to gain some yesterday, or I should say this morning after completing the project. Not that I'm motivated or what, just manage get a taste of pride. So purposely update this blog post to remind myself how nice it feels when I can get something done!

One more thing, I'll be having 5 tests coming up in the next 2 weeks, po pi po pi ar..

坏人不好当

Content warning: This post is a little emo one.. So for those who's looking for funny and happy blog post, skip this one. Thank you.

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我在大学里常常都参与一些活动，当筹委。筹备过程中时常认为高层这里不是，那里不对。 然而最近在活动当了高层，才懂得不容易啊！

高层需要选出适合的人选来担任各种位置，有时就会遇到必须顾虑该不该选朋友的烦恼。但是朋友们自己若不被选，有些会很明白事理，有些就会很不服气。我的高层已开始就必须面对这问题。有位朋友是这活动的踊跃分子，连续参加了两年，但由于有更好的人选，她，就落选了。而我，是那位需要传达这坏讯息给她的使者。

我以为我能胜任这个任务，就打给她。电话没通，进了voicemail，松了一口气。平静的情绪一会儿就让简讯铃声打断了，看一看，是她。烦恼的三天就这样开始了。她不能接受落选的事实，变得很情绪化，把事情看得很personal。我就很难做人啊！高层决定了就是这么办。你是我朋友我也无奈嘛。我想当好人，就一直解释给她听，一直拖，拖到了三天。若事情这样拖下去，活动搞不成啊！我就狠下心当坏人吧！就这样，到了今天，我还没有和她说到半句话。

我不介意当坏人，因为有时只有当坏人，事情才能快速解决，不该拖拖拉拉，但是最重要还是要有人能理解。幸亏我的筹委中有人能理解我们，觉得当了坏人受人恨，也是值得的。

以前若有问题发生，我常常都是静静的，认为让别人当坏人，自己不要插手。但是现在我认为能为了别人而当坏人，我欣赏。

忠言：但若能避免当坏人，还是能免则免吧！不好受啊！