self reflection

I always think that I'm mature enough to organise my own life. Well, now that I really allocate some time to think about this issue that I've tried to avoid for such long time, I realise that I'm not as good as I think.

After entering UTP, my body clock changed. 12am, a time that I considered to be very late back in my secondary school life, now appears to be the beginning of the night. I'll only retire for the night at 3 to 4am. I've put a liitle effort to change it. I threw myself onto bed on 12am yesterday but yet, I woke up at 11am. No matter how early I sleep, I'll just wake up late. My mom wasn't there anymore to wake me up and to drag me to bed.

Secondly, I wasted a lot of time. Facebook is the main culprit, I guess. (pointing the finger to others since I'm the one in blame) I spent a lot of time on Facebook recently. I even surf Facebook when I was revising for my tests which eventually cost me a lot of lost marks. I've rushed through an anime and a Japanese drama recently, Code Geass and Proposal Daisekusen which I rated above 8/10 for both. It is time-consuming but it is much worthy than surfing Facebook. I would also rather use the time I wasted on Facebook to chat with friends on MSN.

I think that I've lived a lifeless life and I've not been using my brain to think in my university life. Sometimes, I have the thought that life is meaningless but I remembered once when my friend said his life is meaningless, I told him,"Life is meaningful, you are the one that is useless to make your life meaningless." I'm damn disappointed with myself now. I seemed to have a scheduled life. It is either going to lectures or spending time in the room surfing the internet. I've also been killing my creativity. I'm living life to the "foolest", not fullest.
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Promises:

1. I would try to sleep early with some exceptions:

(i) if there is a MU match that particular night.

(ii) if I have examination or some assignments to be handed over the other day.

2. I would cut down on my time in Facebook, no exceptions.

3. I would spend more time to think and try to live life to the fullest.

4. I would try to fulfill my promises.